Introduction
From the Color of Sunshine
written by Erin Emily Lassell
My lifelong learning curve has revolved around how to be an average person with an above average psychic IQ in a world where few people use their psychic abilities and everyone else is afraid of them.
Being psychic is so natural to me that there was never a time when I realized I was psychic. Instead, there was a time when I realized others were not.
My personal journey hasn’t been to awaken or reawaken my dormant psychic abilities. It has been to gain enough personal power to sustain what I now realize is my unique comprehension and to use my clairvoyant abilities to learn even more. The psychic world has always been simultaneously superimposed on my physical senses. I have never viewed life without also seeing beneath the surface, way beneath the surface. If life for me has ever been without multi-dimensional perception, it was long ago in a lifetime I don’t remember. But I don’t think so. I think I have been actively psychic every time I have been alive. It is an essential expression of who I am. It is so normal for me that I am bored with the debate over the legitimacy of the supernatural. I do not try to prove the authenticity of the psychic realm. Instead, I use my efforts to make the non-physical world less mysterious.
I misunderstood the exciting metaphysical rhetoric that emerged in the 1980’s that declared, “All people are psychic!” to mean all people actually used their psychic abilities and all people had the same amount of talent. It wasn’t until I was in my early 30’s that I realized my error. Most people use almost no psychic ability to navigate their world and only a small percentage of people have an accelerated psychic talent. As my abilities became more honed, I was stunned to see that other people weren’t actually seeing or comprehending the psychic world, even when it was right in front of and all around them.
As easily as my abilities came to me, learning to have a life with them has been quite difficult. Almost everyone counts on a level of anonymity. They don’t think they are being seen and they don’t want to be seen. So, if you can see what people want to hide, then, on some level, they know it and feel uncomfortable, depending on their indiscretions. They may also feel threatened. How do you be the one that sees in a world where most people want to hide?
When I was in the first grade, I was unaware of how to communicate my special clarity and although most of the time I didn’t communicate it, I didn’t understand that I actually, mostly shouldn’t.
Because of her religious beliefs, my first grade teacher was unmarried and it was easy to see that this caused her frustration that she sometimes took out on us. Most of the time she was nice, with good and clear teaching methods, but she could also be crabby and occasionally got so angry that her whole face would shake and turn red: like the time we were all given a sheet of scarce and therefore valuable plain paper to make a distinct personal hat. Instead, we copied each other and all made our paper into the same exact matching crown. A sea full of 30 crowns, instead of 30 unique first grade designs, made her furious.
It was easy for me to see the real cause of her angry outbursts. She struggled with her vows to a dead man that countless other women had also committed to. She wanted to be married to a non-dead man and have children of her own. It was a painful struggle for her and while a lot of things I saw when I was 6 were beyond my comprehension, this was not. I wanted to heal her and foolishly thought I might say something comforting.
After one of her tantrums and during a break time in the classroom instruction when we were permitted to go up to her desk and ask her questions, I went up to her and blurted out, “It is O.K. if you want to get married.” I told her I God would not be angry with her if she did what she thought was right. I was sure this would relieve her of her guilt, which was another thing I could also clearly see. It was as simple for me to see this dilemma in her aura as it was to see her physically standing in front of me. I didn’t read it in her body language; I read her thoughts and emotions as they existed both inside and outside her body.
While my intention was good and I sincerely wanted her to feel better, you can imagine my error.
Sister Mary never told my parents about what I had said because she never wanted to bring attention to the personal content of what was for her an out of context, inappropriate comment. She remained a little in awe of me for the rest of the year, but also demoted me to the average reading group (I had to spend time in the penalty box) before I was allowed back where I belonged, in the above average reading group (no pun intended).
I had much to learn about living with psychic abilities and I had much to learn about healing. I can’t tell
you how many times, in one way or another, I’ve made this similar mistake. It wasn’t until my early
40’s that I finally started to understand how vulnerable my clairvoyance makes me and how afraid it
makes the recipient. Now in my 50’s I seem to have mostly mastered the art of revealing little of what I see.
Combined with my always-on psychic senses, I have always had an empathetic desire to step in and help. Starting at a very early age I tried to heal everyone, not seeing myself stopping until I had reached the whole world. When I saw my first commercial about hungry children in faraway places, I was devastated. I cried and had nightmares. I put all the money I had (seven cents) in an envelope, took a stamp from my mother’s desk without asking and mailed it to the address they showed on the commercial.
Like many people who have tried to heal the world, I have found out that it cannot be done by one person alone. This was very frustrating and disappointing to me during the years where my idealism could not be separated from my personality. However, I have come to understand the sociological truth of the limitations of healing the world by yourself and the logic that if it could be done, someone would have already accomplished it. Because many others, far greater than myself, have come before me, tried and failed.
I have learned the obvious. We live in a collective society and it is not the responsibility of one person to heal the whole world. In fact, healing the world isn’t designed to be an individual pursuit. It is our individual responsibility to be better than the sum of our parts and to make righteous decisions, even when we think no one is looking and to do our share of social healing, but it is the responsibility of all members of society to heal the collective unconscious and point it towards the greater good.
Even the giants among us (Nelson Mandela, Yitzhak Rabin, and Mother Theresa) could only do their part to heal the world. We still have war, homelessness, poverty, environmental destruction, rape, and greed. And I suppose we will be stuck with these manifestations of ignorance and evil until the good of the collective unconscious outweighs the intention of those individuals who thrive in the spectrum of cruelty.
I hope my book helps make the world a better place by advancing metaphysical theory. Currently, metaphysical theory often reflects the same mistakes made everywhere else in society. One of the biggest mistakes metaphysics makes is equating healing and change with prosperity a.k.a. capitalism, status and competitiveness. While it remains a big obstacle to get the collective unconscious to accept that psychic skills are as natural as any other human sensibility, metaphysics does not help its cause by wrapping intuitive information up with the promise of being blissful and wealthy. Why are these always the target goals for self development? They make metaphysicians look ignorant and foolish by circling their proof of knowledge back around to doing better than everyone else.
I also hope my book helps advance the knowledge and use of psychic and healing skills. Currently, psychic and healing skills are often clumsily taken out of context by people who clearly have issues, leaving valuable information largely untapped and vulnerable to debunking.
For those individuals who have the heart to heal and the ethics to establish themselves in the world of psychic energy, this book is long on explanation with techniques to put it into practice. Heal yourself first so your life can be a reflection of your value and so you will be a bright powerful light of one, in the ocean of greater good.
I was born psychically aware and psychically talented, without a dark side to overcome. That makes me a little bit different. It gives me the ability to gather information most people ignore. I take this responsibility seriously.
I have learned far more than I ever set out to, but I keep my metaphysical knowledge in perspective. If scientists estimate their understanding of the entire universe to be at about 4%, that sounds about right for metaphysicians too. There will always be more answers to questions we haven’t even thought of yet. I hope that my self-defined metaphysical career leaves a legacy worthy of a pioneer.
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